God sees the truth

     Sometimes I read a story or poem or piece of writing, and I think "wow, this has so many awesome points."  These types often keep me bouncing around from idea to idea, wondering and thinking about new concepts.  These types of literature are cool, well written and can act as a catalyst for change.  In "God Sees the Truth but Waits" there is one line that stuck out to me.  The story did not have me bouncing around thinking about ideas, but instead had me stuck on a single thing, a phrase the main character says at the end of the story.
     The phrase is "maybe I am 100 times worse than you."  Interestingly, the main character declares that the murdered who condemned him to 26 years in prison (after trying to kill him), might not be as bad a person as he was.  Is this a revelation to his personal character?  What he might have done if he had not been put in prison?  We see no reason to think that, based on evidence early in the story.  Perhaps instead, this is a revelation of fate.
     The main character, if having lived the same life as Makar, may have lived to be worse.  Fate is cruel, and weird.  Who knows why events are played out the way they are.  Life isn't fair, and there is no reason to believe that it would be.  Who knows how much worse I might have been, if our roles had been reversed.
      After living his life with so much hatred and anger, Aksinov reached a level of contentedness in the last part of his life by settling on one simple truth, "maybe I am 100 times worse than you."  This phrase and this concept has been the one lingering piece that stays.  Where other artists may have given me many concepts, Tolstoy leaves me one - without rhyme or reason, life is unfair.